RESEARCH

honestly, 
being a detective or a researcher
was never my interest
but whoops
when it comes to you i could be more than that
no i dont like you
youre not the person i have feelings for
weirdly
since the first time i knew you were always interesting
i want to spend my whole life learning about you
like when i fail to find something new about you
i will not sleep that night
it disturbs me
it leaves me an uneasy feeling not knowing where you are
what youre doing or if youre fine.
if your heartaches has been healed
if you miss your parents and sisters
if you have a new pet cat
if youve just made a new amazing drawing

speaking of drawings, 
i know youre an awesome person who has that skill
that i dont have at all
but ive never seen any of it
i wish i could
i wish you would sent me atleast a photo of it

wow, you have no idea.
no i dont love you, 
youre just a subject im passionate about
like an astronaut who loves the space