Remember when all I ever knew what to write was love and sappy stories,
made up emotions I have never had the chance to befriend with
Remember when I had a subject I love and die for to come home and create new pieces,
endless definitions of something people call a crush
Remember when coffee saved me from reality,
granting me an experience of allowing my alter ego speak itself like its nobody's business
Remember when all I ever cared for was people,
and feelings and emotions and inexperienced experiences
Remember when I lived life dancing on clouds of imaginations,
And endless endings to which I ended my thoughts with
Remember when I forgot that life wasn't just about fantasies and fairytales
Well I do, but thats all I can ever do
Being reminded, to things I have let go off because I said I wanted to grow
I hope this is growing up.
Thursday, May 25, 2017
Give Me An Answer
AsI lay straight under this cold mild grass watching a complex map we call constellations
Where i submit my whole being to this earth and everything within
Being surrounded by buildings i dont belong called an instituition
i question
is this really where i am supposed to be?
Mom didnt give birth for me to be a quitter
but arent we supposed to take risks and follow our hearts?
What if i run far away and dont find my way back?
Or what if i run fast enough that I find some place i truly feel like home
dear creatures under this ground im lying on
what would you do if you were me?
Dear beating heart, what makes making a decision so hard?
Dear unstoppable mind, tell me whats supposed to be mine.
Dear Creator of everything I questioned, tell me the answer without having to mention.
Dear mom and dad, that is gone being taken away by infinity, i wish i knew the meaning to the word simplicity
And dear self, nothing good comes easy
Do i tell myself to finish what i have started
Or do i tell myself to drop this and get out of what you mean as comfort
Dear land, dear trees, dear sky, dear stars, dear wind, dear sound of nature, dear instincts, dear me,
The answer is with you.
2.55 am May 25 2017, Kolej Mawar
Where i submit my whole being to this earth and everything within
Being surrounded by buildings i dont belong called an instituition
i question
is this really where i am supposed to be?
Mom didnt give birth for me to be a quitter
but arent we supposed to take risks and follow our hearts?
What if i run far away and dont find my way back?
Or what if i run fast enough that I find some place i truly feel like home
dear creatures under this ground im lying on
what would you do if you were me?
Dear beating heart, what makes making a decision so hard?
Dear unstoppable mind, tell me whats supposed to be mine.
Dear Creator of everything I questioned, tell me the answer without having to mention.
Dear mom and dad, that is gone being taken away by infinity, i wish i knew the meaning to the word simplicity
And dear self, nothing good comes easy
Do i tell myself to finish what i have started
Or do i tell myself to drop this and get out of what you mean as comfort
Dear land, dear trees, dear sky, dear stars, dear wind, dear sound of nature, dear instincts, dear me,
The answer is with you.
2.55 am May 25 2017, Kolej Mawar
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