Dear Papa,
This is your little girl speaking. This day is not any more special than any other day, I remember you the same today as all the other days I remember you. The amount inside of me that is missing you, is constant since forever.
I shall not lie that there are days that I forget about you and Mama when I am busy with the stuffs the World has put upon me, but not a day goes by that I don't say my prayers for you both.
Dear Papa,
Most of the best parts in my life, consist of the days I had with you and Mama. I am glad that I couldn't understand the pain of having to think of responsibilities and hardship when you were around. All I can remember about the face you showed me was, a worried Dad who is afraid of her baby girl falling and breaking her bones while playing outside, the face of the clown inside of you tha scared off my friends, the face of a proud father seeing her daughter speaking and painting her imaginations.
But sometimes I wished I could consult you on how to deal with life these days, on how to amend my one and only heart when it gets broken by unworthy boys, on how a classmate of mine is being disrespectful to my lecturer and I don't know what to do about it. And the list goes on Pa. I wish I could just sleep on your arms again while you are watching a tennis match, hug you randomly when we are outside, and hold your hands while walking by the lake. I can still feel your big hands, a bit crooked due to your athritis, quite bumby and rough due to psoriasis, but still one of the warmest hands I have held.
Life is different now Papa, but it is great. It is great that when I do the things I am passionate of, I feel proud. Because a big part of me feels like I am acting you in my skin. It feels like I am showing the World what my father has allowed and taught me to do. Part of me feels amazing introducing the name you gave me along with yours. Part of me feels happy, for I was made of a great mother and father who, the World don't need to know about to know that I come from a great family.
But my dear Papa and Mama,
I am truly sorry if I am a bit too far from what you imagined and wanted me to be, in the aspects that you guys have always been worried about since we were still babies. I am taking small steps, sometimes a bit big to be there to where you guys wished for us to be. Your words and reminders and love, will forever play in my head telling me where I should stand and how I should act.
Mama and Papa,
Happy Fathers Day.
