Unaccepted

I know i suck more than any other human being in this world
I know you gave me everything you had
I know you tried your best

I realise that youre in pain
I realise that youre broken as fuck
I realise this could be fix

Its stupid for me to not kill my ego
Its stupid that i dont want to talk to you at all
Its stupid that i dont want to listen anymore

Im sorry and this sorry is unacceptable
Im not looking for the perfect man, im not looking for any man.
I hope you rebuild yourself
Make yourself better cause i will try too
I hope you find yourself again and achieve every single dream you told me about which i paid too little attention

And like you always said, if our path crosses again,
There no place i could run away.
Goodluck and goodbye, youre the best!

This is an unacceptable appology from me to you.

Buhbuýe

Teach how to appreciate
Before they close their gates
Tell me to stop depending on fate
Because i need to learn to swell before its too late.

Its too late now
But this is what i asked for
Something i waited it to come everyday at my door
And now its here

Am i happy you asked?
Yes

Erk

I have a new habit of editing photos weirdly hahahhaha ok bye. I just dont feel like tweeting this one

CARAMEL POPCORN

Reality is painful

Reality is fun

It would be more wonderful

If youre always with your loved ones

I want to go back home now

I want to be there always

Its not that I cant adapt here but you know

I just don’t want to be here in this place

Fly me high

Fly me far

I want to be higher that the skies

Or atleast a place where I can touch a star

Im not like a caramel coated popcorn,

Always nice and sweet

Im not.

Bookworms

Some believes that we need to get to know somebody so well
Share with them every inch of us
Built walls of trust around each other
Only then we could love them
Only then we know that a two way relationship could be formed
Only then that lovebirds would exist

Some believes that if you have a crush on a person that is good looking
And they like you back
You could just jump into a relationship

Some believes that we could grow love in our hearts like plants
Putting the seed in a persons body like confessing you love someone
And shower them with your sweetness everyday so that the roots will linger then strengthen in the persons heart

Some never even loved each other
They just be together because thats best for them and their future
Because only then they could both be seen as "stable" or "complete"

I believe differently
I believe that love is when you see that persons face despite how many bullshit they put you through,
You will still see calmness in them
Love is when it overcomes the looks
The money and the world

Love could be cruel to you
It could beat the hell out of you physically until you paralyse
It could leave you on the floor naked after they suck every honey youve got to offer
But i believe thats love because until your last fucking breath
You still believe theres hope
When clearly that person is buried in a grave married to another woman

Its doesnt have to be a perfect ending
Love is just when you love that person endlessly
Despite the negativity you have to die around.

Permission

Be it my way or your way
I will still carry the guilt with me

If it goes your way
Im not sure if that means ill have to fake it till i make it
Or just die in a pool of my own pride

If it goes my way
I would still guilty for hurting you
Doesnt mean ill be 100% happy with my decision
I would even dare to say, ill wait for karma to shoot me straight to the brain

Whats love when theres no 'us'?
I believe that others could make it through
But not me

So whats the plan now?
Should we or shouldnt we?

KHEMAAAAH!!

She was only 13.
She used to cover her body with oversized dresses which sweeps the floor clean.
When she goes out, her eyes was the only thing presented for the world to see besides her hands.
But to cover her face was not necessary for her age.
The covers on her head, was so long it even covered her buttocks.

On 30th October 2009,
It was her school annual sports day.
She has the stamina and strength that allowed her to run at a pace close to Bolts'.
So she took place in almost all the track and field category because she was the hope of her sports team, Merak.

Preeeeeeeet!
The student who was handling the whistle blew it until his cheeks were round and red.
She ran as fast as she could, putting everyones hope forward.

Suddenly she heard a boy screamed
"WEH KHEMAH BERGERAK! KHEMAH BERGERAK!!!"

Today,
If you see a lady walking in DIY thorn skirts or tops made out of shawls which reveals her pierced belly button
Sometimes when she thinks its sweater weather she would wear her boyfriends hoodies with long jeans folded 4inches up from her ankle,
Or maybe summer dress to show off her solid buns,
Make a conversation with her and say "panas nak mati doh. Kan best kalau ada khemah"

Mental breakdown

Ive been using my brain too much it is out of control
Reading and memorising, is my routine for weeks now
Everyone is struggling their best to achieve their goals
We will not even get to spent time, before we all chow

Soo we will take our seperate ways
Id like to thank and appologise to one and every of you
Some would amazingly remember me as their baes
Unfortunately, a few wished i was glued under their shoe

Farewell for now, homies and babes
Have a good rest,
You guys deserve it, watch tv and eat grapes!

Lovebirds

Its lovely when lovebirds call each other cute names,
Chirp chirp, as they flew together side by side freely in the skies.

Its lovely when you call me by cute names,
Chirp chirp, are we lovebirds?

Everyday you wake up you would try your best to gain my trust and win my heart.
Chirp chirp, are we lovebirds?

I dont have the right tractor to break my own walls for me to call you back with cute names,
Its too thick and strong,
Its easier to keep on building, rather than breaking.
Chirp chirp, so do you still think we could be lovebirds?

Everyday i wake up wishing you have given up on me,
Walking away as i breathe in the morning breeze,
With two drops of tears falling from each of my two pools of lies,
I would smile because you would be happier without me.
Chirp chirp, and i bid goodbye as you fly.
We are not going to be lovebirds.

Humpty dumpty

"Your walls are too high for me to climb",
I hear you say.
Your voice was far but i know youre near.

Im not trying to play with your heart,
I just want you to hear.
I want you to understand it crystal clear,
Everything i need to say and every reason i have to lay.

Its too early for me to trust,
Im afraid my heart would crush into dust.

There is more we have to go through.
In this, sure there is no rush.

Be patient and be strong.

I promise i wont be a person you would regret knowing,
The person who you would end up saying you knew since the beginning i was wrong,
Or make you end your life, with lying beside you a rusty bong.