IT'S MEANT TO BE BROKEN, ANYWAY

Dear you, 

I'm just here to say that you have broken your promise

I have let you kiss my scars

touch my covered soul

And now you're using it against me

Now that you're filled with joy

Occupied by time

Loved deep like love stories that I often write

You're using my weaknesses against me.

Let me ask you,

How is this fair?

Well,

How is it even fair for you to say things you're no longer sure of

Things you assume to be true just because you thought you still know me so well?

How is it fair for you to disturb my peace just because your peace isn't just peaceful enough?

How could you say that I am caught up with the past

When I am absolutely unsure of meeting my loved ones again

Even in the afterworld

If the past helps me move forward

And become better everyday

If the past gives me lessons that nothing else can offer

If the past can protect me from the pain I never want to feel again

Then let me be.

Let me be.

Let me.

Unreasonable Reason

To all the boys I said no

To all the boys I said
"sorry, but my heart belongs to someone else"

To all the boys
who loved me and swam deep into my soul
only to find another in my corners

To all the boys
who felt unloved
because I was always comparing to a being I have never knew

To all the boys
who I told to leave to find happiness
because they can never be mine

To the boys
who felt like I never belonged to them
just because I make excuses

I was never in love with someone else

I was never in love with you either

I didn't belong to you

Nor did I belong to anyone else

I am myself

Thus, I go.