I have hated negativity so much, I hated seeing violence and pain. I have hated fights and quarrels. I have hated every single thing that could put my heart at a place where it feels like every little piece of it is being broken slowly, one after another.
I have turned off the television when the news throws pictures of war in my face, I have shut off the radio when they scream jokes of anothers' sufferings, I have shut off the people who has only been telling me to hate and hate and hate and break and turn myself into a hipocrite, I have been hiding in my blanket and sing m favourite melodies all along.
But tell me how do I even put my running shoes on, how do I even stand up to run from the things that breaks my heart even when I don't ask for any of it? How do I close my eyes when it haunts my dreams? How do I shut my ears when it's too close and loud? How do I not give a damn, when it has everything to do with the only thing that is left for me in this World?
How do I.... fix all these things that only breaks me? How do I........ help? How........................
