Goodbye

I could have loved you
But i choose not to
I thought i have tried my best
But thats just my ingenuity

Im sorry im not a good person
And i am not what you want me to be
Maybe the blame is on me
as i put you in this situation
But dude, everything is a choice

And i choose to keep my walls thick and high
Thanks for everything you have done
Thanks for your attention
But trust me, i am not the kind of person you can bear.

I know the word 'sorry' wont fix this disaster
Of course not even by giving you a house by the river
I really dont deserve anyone to be my lover
I have been mean, since i came out of my mother.

Please dont blame God for blessing me into your life
I promise i wont mind if the world hates me for this
One day when im in pain, and karma comes to kill me
I allow you to laugh or even embarrass me.