Wounded Soul

To the wounded soul.

I'm sorry if i don't appreciate you enough

Or listen to whatever you have to say

Or respect your opinions about me.

I'm sorry if you think I cannot commit to this relationship 

and know my dos and donts.

I'm sorry if I'm always bothering your mind with the little things I do.\

Things you don't fucking care.

I'm sorry that I'm not at all like you

and I don't care as much as you do

But you still do because you don't know how not to.

And I know sorry is not enough if I'm going to keep repeating whatever I'm doing.

Change is very hard especially when we don't even want to try

And for now I'm still not ready to even think of it.

Honestly 

if you think you're going to get hurt by me

for the next few months

or I dont know how long

and you cant bear it,

Im fine for you to leave.

I haven't been thinking at all 

but then I thought I have to say this 

because its stupid if I keep on doing things that would hurt you.

And even after this long apology

I cannot guarantee you that I wont hurt you again

because that's what I always do anyway

And just as you expect

I enjoy doing it because I have never got this much attention before. 

But you should know that

even if nobody paid attention to me

I would still be okay 

because its pretty awful sometimes 

to have the thought that you're hurting someone who loves you

but you cant help but still hurt them.

Lastly, I'm sorry if this hurt too much.

I know, 

I'm so sure I will hurt you more in the future. 

I just do.

I'm sorry.