Past Midnight Thoughts #4

Maybe the reason why I don't deserve you is because you have always had my back. You were always there to tell how much I'm worth of a person. You will always highlight to me the good things over the bad ones when I thought I failed. You would always remind me how smart and unique I am. I just realised how much love can do to us. It kept me going, eventhough I never knew it was something. You had never made fun of the things I did, all you see in those brainchilds of mine are the future. All you had was patience and all I had was selfishness. Boy, that was why I wanted you to leave me so badly. You're power but I am toxic. We can never work. When you become fire, I didn't try to put you off. Leaving a fire to burn is as bad as adding petroleum. You worked for yourself, you worked. Everytime it was you, never me. Today, I miss those supportive words you would always give me but I have to face the fact that I was the one who told you to go. Now somebody else is getting all those things I miss, maybe you are giving her more. But it is okay, because she deserves all those things. Unlike me.