Past midnight thoughts #3

I was driving the other day and my friend asked me

"how do you actually talk and hang out with the people you're in love, as if you're not?"

"Maybe I've never actually felt love, because to me all this time love came from the mind and not the heart. Maybe it's just something you think you're feeling. It's just games of the brain. Just like how you breathe and walk, controlled by the brain. It probably goes the same to your heart. Just like when you're about to give up on a test, but you brain stormed and got the answer. Same goes to love, if you try hard enough to think you like that person, your brain will make it all seems like rainbows. And no matter how you feel like its hard to get over something, just occupy your brain with things that makes you forget. But forgetting my friend, is a whole different think. I'll have to talk to you on another drive session to talk about that because the brain remembers. As for me, no matter how much I fancy a person, I make sure my brain puts certain limits so I won't do things I don't like. Like looking desperate and needy. Or showing people how vulnerable I am because I like the fact that I think I am strong. It's all in the mind, how bad you want it, how you don't care about it or how much you hate it. Me, I like the idea of the person not the idea of having them. People always get me wrong. They think I fall in love because I'm crazy and psychotic erotic and name it all. But I am not. I might seem a bit crazy at times, but that's because I want to. I love the idea of falling in love, the idea of people making love because they think they would die without it. My friend, people lose themselves when they break up because their brain are so used to the idea of having another person in it. And now it's trying hard to undo it. Its trying so hard to create new memories. But like i said before, it never forgets. You would get over it by time because you'll encounter new ideas and experiences. However, if you don't let your brain to do so, then it never will. Basically, I just want to say you will feel what you want. You like the idea of that person, maybe his hair that makes you think he's different. Or I don't know maybe his personality or anything about him. It's games of the mind, merely games of the mind. And I would accept if you'd beg to differ"